Deep and blue...

I was sinking. My hands were tied. I tried to break the shackles apart with all the strength I had.I wriggled with every muscle of my body. My calf muscle twitched and the pain seemed to reverberate in my brain. I could feel the nerve on the left side of my forehead tightening. I squealed in pain. just wanted to get out. A helpless gasp followed. But the harder I tried the more I sank. I tried to scream my lungs out for help. But all that came out was a helpless moan. My throat was dry and I tasted blood's tangy flavour. Mind is the weirdest thing in the universe. Learn to tame it and you can do anything. Let it loose and it will drag you through even the worst memory of your's. An avalanche of thoughts came pouring down on me. The good,the bad and the ugly. But I didn't care anymore. All the good I had done, all the bad I had done; nothing mattered anymore. I just wanted to get out. Ignoring the pain I tried over and over again. Soon my muscles went numb. It didn't hurt anymore. I don't really know if I felt good or bad about it but definitely got my focus back on track. This time I tilted myself and wriggled towards the sides. I was shifting slowly. I don't really know where this sudden gush of power and determination came from, but it seemed to help. My conscious was back. I don't exactly remember for how long I kept on wrestling with water. My mind and body had already been stretched to their limits and more. I couldn't feel my body anymore. I was struggling to keep my head out of water. I realized it was just a matter of time now. My eyes rolled upwards and my eyelids shut slowly. It was my mind that went down first and soon my body followed. I moved no more.

Thud!!!and my head banged on the wall as I rolled over. I jumped out of bed. Shit!!!that was one of the worst dreams I ever had. I shut my eyes tight and held my clasped hands tight against my forehead and prayed for a minute. I turned on the lights. I was still breathing heavily. I rubbed my palm against my chest and forehead. I was covered in sweat. I could feel sweat pouring down my back. I walked in to the wash room and splashed some water on my face and looked in the mirror. Damnn... my forehead was swollen and my face had gone red.

The light in the ktichen was still on. I grabbed a bottle of evian from the refrigerator and finished it off in one go. My breathing eventually slowed down. I sat down on my bed trying hard to relax. I turned off the light and and pulled the duvet over. I was not sure if I had actually got over the shock. As I closed my eyes hoping for a better night the dark shades of deep waters appeared before me...